CALYPSO.5

As I stand frozen in front of Massiah, I think about how I raised our two-year-old by myself for two years, and he was nowhere to be found. I couldn’t even ask for him because if I did, it would’ve gotten back to him that I was looking for him. I wouldn’t give him that satisfaction of knowing I wanted to talk to him. Even if I just wanted him to know that I was pregnant. I stopped looking once I realized he hadn’t been seen anywhere after that night. I don’t even care to know where he’s been.

I’m just pissed off right now because he fucked me, got me pregnant, and disappeared. I’m not even going to mention my virginity because I don’t remember if I willingly let him fuck on me.

Picking up Stormi, I turn my cart around and walk away. My eyes start watering up, but I quickly wipe my eyes.

“Dream” Elijah yells.

I glance behind me to see a frown on Elijah’s face. I miss that little boy so much. He made me smile my entire pregnancy and I’m glad I had him with me. I’m glad I met that little boy and I know he’s going to do great things one day. I just don’t want to be anywhere near his brother.

Massiah ruined my life and I’ll never forgive him. I’m not mad he gave me a beautiful baby girl because she’s my motivation to be the best version of me. She’s the reason why I might be graduating a year early with my bachelor’s in education. I just wish he wasn’t the one to get me pregnant. Shit, I wish he didn’t just disappear without a trace. It’s just bittersweet. Nobody knew where he was except for his friends and they keep shit to themselves.

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I finished buying all my groceries and I’m buckling Stormi in her seat. I push her hair from in her face and kiss her cheek.

“I love you” I mumble.

“Wove you Mommy” she giggles.

I smile. After closing the door, I go to put the groceries in the trunk. A gray Genesis GV80 coupe slowly pulls up. Ignoring it, I push my hair behind my ear and grab a bag. The car stops and I start putting things in the trunk a little faster.

A random hand grabs a bag from the cart and sets it in the trunk. I glance up to see Massiah.

“I got it,” I grab the last four bags.

I quickly put them in the trunk and closed it. As I reach for a case of water, he picks it up and sets it on top of the other. He picks up both and walks around me. Rolling my eyes, I walk to the other door and open it. He set the cases on the seat.

“Thank you,” I mumble, closing the door.

“When you had a kid?” he asked.

“None of your business” I reach for the driver’s side door.

He pulls me close to him, “You know you mine, right? So whoever you bd is ain’t gone be breathing for long.”

“Funny you say that, but I need to go. So if you don’t mind, I’d really appreciate it if you left me the fuck alone like you been doing.” I pull away from him.

“You know you mine,” he said as I opened the door.

Ignoring him, I sit inside my car and lock the doors. I blow out a deep breath and look in the rearview mirror waiting for him to move his car.

I don’t know why he thinks I’m his because I’m not. I never was. If he really wanted me, he shouldn’t have disappeared. But I feel like he’s going to be looking for a nigga to say that they’re my baby daddy. Nobody is going to claim they are, so he’s gonna be wasting his time.

My ringing phone catches my attention, distracting me from my thoughts. It’s Kieth. I answer it and glance in the back seat to see Stormi falling asleep. She didn’t nap yet so I’m not surprised that she’s falling asleep right now.

“Hello”

“Wassup ma. You home?”

Right… Kieth and I have been seeing each other for a year. He didn’t care that I got pregnant from a one-night stand and stood by my side through the whole thing.

“Not yet. I’m leaving Walmart” I put my foot on the brakes and put my car in reverse.

“Ight, don’t cook ’cause we bout to have a movie night. I’m getting wing stop and some snacks, then ima be on my way.”

I slowly backed out as Massiah moved his car. “Okay. How was work?”

Keith sighs, “Stressful.”

He doesn’t work at the preschool anymore. He left to work at an alternative school. I still work at the same place. I got promoted to a behavioral technician, so I track all the kid’s behaviors and focus on their programs to reduce the amount of behaviors. And your girl is registered.

“Same kid?” I ask.

“Yeah, but it’s straight. How was your day?”

“Pretty good. I got a lot done at the house. Ima go to work tomorrow cause I got a meeting with Danielle and Tonya”

“That’s good, but hold up. This my sister calling” he says before hanging up.

I made my way home and thought about if I wanted to tell Massiah. I could tell him that Stormi is his daughter, but I doubt he’d believe me. He’s still the only nigga I ever had sex with. Kieth may have been around for a couple of years, but I don’t feel comfortable having sex with him yet. He’s been respecting my decision and I’m honestly glad he does. Not too many men would still fuck with a female without sex.